Day one starts tomorrow I have decided. You might have to be a little patient I have not done this kind of thing before. I am also not the most reliable of people at keeping things up. I can only try.
I'm giving myself sixty nine days. Sixty nine days to lose weight. Sixty nine days to lose weight in a healthy, sane and reasonable way.
No dieting, ditching of any type of foods, or dropping out. Just sheer hard work and tonnes of sensible behaviour. This might sound very ordinary. Like it may not even work, dare I say it. But perhaps I should explain. I have never tried being sensible in my life before. Ever. This is a very new concept. I have been on some form of diet or self imposed food restriction since I was maybe eleven/twelve years old. No fats, no meat, no dairy, no wheat, no white foods, no solids, vegetables only, grapes only, protein only, no junk, no carbs, no calories (ahh, the diet coke and tissue paper diet at age 16),... all invariably accompanied by the requisite binge on said banned substance about once or twice a week. And it works, in a roundabout way, you go up, you go down, preferably in synch with the demands of the season/social occasions/boyfriends....
But....
It's. Stopped. Working.
Summer didn't come this year, no holidays were planned, social events were scarce and, worst of all... I am very. Happy. With. The boyfriend.... In short I am fat, and getting fatter by the day/hour/minute....
And why am I airing my dirty laundry here? Mainly because as can probably be deduced, I have the willpower of a knat. (Assuming they have very little willpower, someone check with Attenborough please.) If I don't feel that this issue/challenge/whatever it is, is out there, in the big wide world of the internet, I'll probably just retire to my room every day with a packet of hob nobs and continue being 'happy'.
Which is where the being sensible bit comes in. If I diet, I am unhappy. And as I've been dieting most of my life, I think that's a shame. I propose that I can eat (not over eat!) all the foods I want to, just one at a time... and at appropriate times, and with a bit of exercise thrown in there for good measure I will lose and maintain a healthy weight.
I am not trying to get down to a size zero.
I just don't want to wobble when I walk.
It would also be a bonus to put on a swim suit without losing my self esteem in the changing rooms.
Tomorrow is day one.
